I wish you the best of luck for Thursday and hopefully they can clearly tell you what’s wrong and be able to fix it. Hopefully Thursday will come quicker than you want.

I had a migraine for two consecutive months but I can’t even imagine how it would be if it lasted for more two months. You’re such a strong girl I hope you MRI helps you and that you’ll be able to find some way to find a relief :)

I really hope the doctors find what is causing you such suffering and treat what ever is wrong so you can feel better once and for all. I don’t think you are religious but you are in my daily prayers. Fighting! :)

Hang in there and I hope it’s nothin major. Stay positive and keep pushing!

Thank you guys for the nice comments! I really do appreciate them <3 

Usually I don’t write much on here, but I just really feel the need to write. Perhaps to see if people can actually grasp what I am going through or because there is someone who feels the exact same way.

Since February I’ve been dealing with sciatica (nerve pain), though it was only slight and nothing more than annoying the first 2 months… the last 2 months have been hell. Literally Hell. I don’t think people can grasp the constant agony I feel just trying to get out of bed in the morning. 

I do this everyday. 24 hours a day I am in pain.

You don’t realize how much something can affect your body and mind. Sometimes I cry out of nowhere because I feel so defeated. Like what kind of life am I suppose to have if I have to be in constant pain. What is the point in pursuing my dreams when I am not going to enjoy them. How can I be a good girlfriend, friend, daughter, student, or employee if I can’t even move. How I wish for such simple things like being able to bend and pick something up, or even just wake up and jump out of bed. Everything is a struggle. 

I have an MRI Thursday so perhaps I can get a clear answer on what is actually the cause of all this. At this point I am desperate for relief and am hoping the doctors will give me options. The physical therapy and steroids have done nothing for me and it only pushes me deeper into this hole of depression of the fear of never being able to escape this torture. Until then I am going to continue a holistic approach with acupuncture, vitamins, and eating an anti-inflammatory diet. I avoid prescription medications like the plague as to how I feel they do more harm than good.

So, today obviously has been a bad day. But, you know, tomorrow I’m going to wake up and go to work and fight through the pain as I always do. Sorry for such a depressing update, but none the less, thanks for reading.

So, I never update my tumblr because:

1) it’s finals and I have a lot of projects
2) I work 30+ hours a week
3) I have a pinched nerve and am in a lot of chronic pain

Furthermore, I apologize for my lack of activity and have already lost like 20 followers… one day my life will be in order and I can tumbl once again.

Til next time.